Thursday, October 15, 2015
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Oct. 15th
I haven't talked much about infertility in the past 2 years, not nearly as much as I used to when we were going through all of it. But for today I'm allowing myself to feel those feelings all over again and to grieve in whatever way brings me comfort. And please know all of you struggling with infertility, that I'm always praying for your miracles to join your lives. Motherhood is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I pray for it to happen for you too.
After a year and a half of trying to conceive and after meeting with a fertility doctor who told us IVF was our only option, we ignored the advice and amazingly conceived naturally. February 15th, 2012 I found out I was pregnant, we went in for our checkup and everything was great. We heard a beautiful heartbeat at 167! Word got out even thought I didn't want it to, it just naturally does after a couple has been trying for so long. Sadly, the day before my 13 week checkup, I woke up with signs of a miscarriage. My doctor scheduled a D&C and whatever signs of life I carried inside of me were painfully removed.
A little over a year after that, we conceived Little Monkey. What a beautiful blessing he has been in our lives. We have struggled now for 10 months to have another, but we both feel the love of God working in our lives as we await our next blessing.
This is my story and I know there is far worse out there, but for me it continues to be one of the hardest moments in my life. My son has healed many of those wounds with his sweet smile, loving attitude, and rambunctious boyhood spirit.
If you have suffered through pregnancy and infant loss, I am praying for you tonight at 7PM when I light my candle. I'm praying for God to heal your wounds and to surround you with people who will uplift and comfort you in this time of need.
Please join us at 7PM by lighting a candle of remembrance.