Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Wonderful Wednesday

I found some old pictures recently and I couldn't help but imagine what I would have told myself back then, how I could've better prepared myself for the trials to come.
I guess there is no way to do that.
Maybe go back in the Back to the Future time machine and warn myself of the mistakes I would make, the people to stay away from, and the decisions that would fill my heart with regret.
I could've warned myself of the dangers of dating. To stay away from that local band in downtown Provo, to stay in that night and avoid a really awful relationship.
If I had, would I have been able to prove to the world how strong I could be? Would I have been able to help fellow friends in need or to warn them of paths they did not want to experience?
I would have told myself to be adventurous, but more alert, when I hear the warnings in my head, to listen, obey, and find safety.
Would I be able if not for the knee surgeries to later relate to my patients during my internship in physical therapy?
Would it have really made a difference, would I have even listened to myself?
I would've said, "that will never happen to me"...
If I told this couple then, what they would be in store for now, would it have changed their minds on their future?
If I told them hard times were ahead...
 I could've protected myself. I didn't have to go to Utah for school, nobody forced me to make the choices I did.
But where would I be now if I had let my anxieties control my life?
Would I have met my husband and married him in the Washington D.C. Temple?
Would I have been adamant that we secure my employment while he attended school? Yay for no debt!
Would I have been able to reach out to other women suffering from infertility?
Most of all would I be who I am today if I had not been through my past experiences.
Maybe I would live in Florida or be a teacher in the Midwest?
For whatever reason I am here in Middle Georgia looking towards the future a little stronger, a teeny tiny bit more mature, and a lot more compassionate.

I hope for my Southern Hope readers that y'all will take those risks, learn from your mistakes, and become stronger in your faith.

Jeffrey R. Holland said it best,
“Don't you quit. You keep walking, you keep trying, there is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon. Some come late. Some don't come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in Good Things to Come.”