Thursday, December 6, 2012

Why Blog?

Why do I do this? Why do I put so much information about myself out there for people to read? I think the first answer any blogger will tell you is it keeps us in touch with relatives and documents our memories. But why do we really blog? Why do we keep sharing? Why do we care so much?

I sometimes feel like people already have in their heads who I am as a person or how I feel about something. There are many labels that can be applied to my face and they have not always been the nicest. Blogging has given me a way to express how I really feel without worrying about all the assumptions and interruptions that come with it. And maybe I don't even know how I feel and writing helps me figure it out!

I began blogging my Junior year at BYU (wow almost 5 years of blogging). I started as a way to keep in touch with my family. Instead of status updates, I was giving them pages filled with my thoughts (a lot of them feel I talk too much... which I do). 

Then this blog became about something more when I started talking about rheumatoid arthritis. I started hearing from friends in class who had chronic illnesses themselves and they looked to my blog on how to live through it. One girl in particular who always seemed so sporty and punkrockish (so hip in Utah) told me she had been suffering with Fibromyalgia.

Suddenly we knew each other's pain and seeing her in the hallway, I felt like we shared a bond.
Then I went through some bad breakups, went a little boy crazy, and went on some amazing Utah adventures. I almost felt like my blog was challenging me to make it more interesting which made me want to take more risks, say "yes" more. Friends started asking for dating advice! Ha! 

Then I met R which was really fun to post about and started a new blog once we were married. Things are always exciting and spontaneous when R is involved. When I came home to GA I was worried things would slow down too much. I didn't really give Georgia enough credit when I lived here. 

In my 18 year old mind, I wanted to get out of here as fast as possible. Live somewhere new and make new friends! Now as I settle back into my home state (3 years later) I have begun to see the amazing things Georgia has to offer.

As I settle into this new trial in my life (infertility, yay!), blogging has become much more personal. It's made my parents cringe at some of the honest things I post. I am so hopeful that 2013 has good news in store for us. I hope I look back on blog posts from 2012 and proudly say I got through it and created some great memories during a really hard time in my life. 
I hope that is what my readers pull from my blog. How to get through the trials while creating wonderful memories. Don't pull the blankets over your heads, don't blend in with others, go straight to that trial look it in the face and say, "LET'S DO THIS!!"

Because it isn't going away until we decide to accept that trial and deal with it head on. 
In other less serious blogging news, I made these gifts for my coworkers this week (I feel really awful because I can't find the link where I got these labels and want to give the person credit, so sidenote: I did not design the label). 

They were so easy to put together and came out really cute! Hot cocoa from our church, M&M's, marshmallows, and a white chocolate sprinkled spoon.
“God expects you to have enough faith and determination and enough trust in Him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing. In fact, He expects you not simply to face the future (that sounds pretty grim and stoic); He expects you to embrace and shape the future--to love it and rejoice in it and delight in your opportunities.

God is anxiously waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as He always has. But He can't if you don't pray, and He can't if you don't dream. In short, He can't if you don't believe.”

Jeffrey R. Holland

1 comment:

Giggles said...

There are so many reasons to blog, but I think sorting through your own life is one of the best. Our blog keeps us in touch with family, but more importantly it keeps me in touch with me.