Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Ouch!!

I went to the gym Monday morning to release some pent up anger and frustration. I won't go into details, because it was immature, and I don't want any one's feelings hurt. To sum up, someone got an "unexpected blessing," I found out over the weekend from a friend, for some reason it didn't affect me until I was alone in the house Monday morning.

Without people, places, or things around to distract me, I became angry and felt I had been dealt an unfair hand (no correlation between the hand pic below hardy har har) in life. So I went to the gym to release some of the tension (that's healthy right?) and after 20 minutes of good feeling cardio, I marched into BodyPump! After the warm up track, we went to switch to a heavier weight for squats and I pinched my finger between the plate and bar. At first, I thought it was fine, then I looked down and blood was running down my hand. I ran off to the bathroom as blood was dripping onto my other hand. Needless to say, I felt pretty dumb, so my advice: don't go to the gym angry!

Afterwards I got into my car and cried, which is probably would I should've done to begin with, I felt much better afterwards and was able to finish the day in a Happy Go Whitney mode!

That night, I reread Elder Holland's talk, The Laborers in the Vineyard. There's a group on Facebook that I joined (thanks to Carla on Facebook), we are all trying to read all the talks from April General Conference before this coming October General Conference. I am obviously a little behind, but I've been reading multiple talks per day.

Here's the quote that I love so much, even though it still hasn't really stuck to my ribs yet...

"Brothers and sisters, there are going to be times in our lives when someone else gets an unexpected blessing or receives some special recognition. May I plead with us not to be hurt—and certainly not to feel envious—when good fortune comes to another person? We are not diminished when someone else is added upon. We are not in a race against each other to see who is the wealthiest or the most talented or the most beautiful or even the most blessed. The race we are really in is the race against sin, and surely envy is one of the most universal of those.

Furthermore, envy is a mistake that just keeps on giving. Obviously we suffer a little when some misfortune befalls us, but envy requires us to suffer all good fortune that befalls everyone we know! What a bright prospect that is—downing another quart of pickle juice every time anyone around you has a happy moment!"

I love Elder Holland, he always speaks right to my heart. I really am working on this concept in my life, but it is really hard when I see others around me who may even seen the least bit undeserving (there I said it) receive blessings that I have been praying for during the past 2 years. This time in my life has brought about a lot of personal reflection and I am at the very least grateful for those moments. 

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